Long story short, the Prozac has not worked. 24/7 leg cramps that made it incredibly painful to sit or stand or move or lie down put an end to that one.
When I went to see my GP she didn’t really know what to do with me, and I was so scared that she was going to give up on me, but instead she referred me to a depression specialist.
Technically they are a mental health specialist, aka a psychiatrist, but I like the sound of a depression specialist more. Makes it seem a little bit more fancy.
I haven’t had an appointment with anybody as of yet, because I’m on the waiting list for a public psychiatrist (this girl can’t afford a private one) but I have had a phone consultation about my mental health history, and the guy on the phone was very nice.
The reason I’m going to see the specialist is to find an anti-depressant that will be the right fit for me. One that won’t give me side effects, but will actually help me to feel better. According to all the professionals I have talked to I’m doing everything I should be to manage my depression, but having the right meds is the thing that’s missing.
When I first got this referral I definitely felt defeated. I was very scared that I would never get better, like this was a last resort. And I am still worried about what my options will be if this doesn’t work. But as hard as it is, I’m trying to be optimistic. There are still dozens of other meds out there, and hopefully this depression specialist will help me track down the right one for me.
As always, I’ll keep you guys updated about the journey every Monday. If you have any other questions about my experience, leave them for me down below!